HAHAHA...Cirlces

I know one thing. Everything seems to be changing. Life itself completely will make circles around you. it will throw you in and out of love as quickly as you can imagine. I'm madly in love and then I find out that I don't even know if I know what love truely is.  I have been told that Garth explains me perfectly. So here it is....Thank you aaron, I truely love you.

She's sun and rain, she's fire and ice
A little crazy but it's nice
And when she gets mad, you best leave her alone
'Cause she'll rage just like a river
Then she'll beg you to forgive her
Oh, she's every woman that I've ever known.

She's so New York and then L.A.
And every town along the way
She's every place that I've never been
She's makin love on rainy nights
She's a stroll through Christmas lights
And she's everything I want to do again.

It needs no explanation
'Cause it all makes perfect sense
For when it comes down to temptation
She's on both sides of the fence.

No it needs no explanation
'Cause it all makes perfect sense
When it comes down to temptation
She's on both sides of the fence.

She's anything, but typical
She's so unpredictable
Oh but even at her worst she ain't that bad
She's as real as real can be
And she's every fantasy
Lord she's every lover that I've ever had
And she's every lover that I've never had

UPDATE

I AM BEAT!!!!

So this week has been so hectic its unreal. I don't know whether I am coming or going. My job is absolutely amazing. I love the people that I work with. There is Aja, Rico, Slander, Beth, Breanna, Garrett, Jesse, my momma Sabrina, Jamie, Ellum, and there are others, but my mind is so gone, I don't remember them at the current moment......Lets see. Unfortunetly, I didn't get to take care of some of my business today, its all good, I will get around to it. Easter is this Sunday, and to be honest I am not looking forward to hanging out with people that I don't even know.....I would prefer to be out with my friends at the loft. But I guess Friday and Saturday will have to do. To be honest, I have turned into a pyro,......I love fire! I enjoy every aspect of it. It has become part of me, I didn't think that this stuff would happen so quickly....I really love it...I just wish that a few things that have happened wouldn't have and then maybe it would all be better. Hell the stars know I am going through a lot of crap, I will post my horoscope at the end of this so you see whats going on. Sunday, I am going to try to head over to J.C's house, cause his birthday is monday, It all depends though on the "rents" here. Humm, I do good to convince them of several things. but I am gonna head off and get ready for church. Later all.........Loves

Get into doing things today, dear Aquarius. It's a prime time to get busy. Activities that require focus or creativity will be supported, but more so, physical strength and energy will encourage you to do something active. If you've been feeling sluggish, tired or even a little under the weather, this can put an end to all of it. Consider artistic projects that take strength to do, such as building something out of wood or carving. Make something special for your favorite person.

Mandy

Put all these dates on your calendar too...Its the renaissance faire here in emory!

JUST LET IT ALL GO...

 If the tangled web that I have woven for myself recently is really what I need, than why does everything feel so wrong? And also, why does it feel like everyone of my close friends is slipping away because of a trap I should have been prepared for all along?  I know what I have to do now, and even though its not what I want and I dread  this, I have to move on; Get over it and quit being used... like I have been all my life. I wish there was a way that none of this would have to happen, but it is impossible and inevitable, so its best that I do it now, and not put it off so that it doesn't hurt me more than it already has. For the past three days I have fallen into yet another pit, not of drugs or alcohol; but of depression and despair. I do well to try to hide it, yet; I have failed...again. I keep blaming myself for things that not even I could have controlled to there fullest extent. I said that I would never do what I have done recently, Lie, Cheat, anything to get what I wanted, and I am afraid that I have hurt many that don't deserve what they have recieved. Its not fair to any of you, and I will completely understand if all of you feel that it would be in your best interest to never speak to me again. Somehow, I still feel as though that I could have changed the way that all of this has turned out, that I had some control over this but did not grasp it early enough, and now, Its cut and scarred me, and might have lost me some of the best friends I have ever had.  I should have dropped the match when it was handed to me, but instead I struck it becuase I enjoyed the smell of it and wanted the warmth and acceptance I held captive when it was in my hand.  I know that I can not leave at this exact moment, but I have decided what my future holds and the only way that I feel that I can do anything with what the Lord has given me is to do what I said I would do if  ever I felt it was necessary. You all will find out soon enough, theres no need of me advertising my future on here.  I know that many of you will wonder what I am trying to come down too. Unforutnely, I am always wrapped up in things that I can not win, and I see now that I never stopped to think of any of you, and I never really got the whole thing right. The anditote for this whole situation, is to change where I am going, turn around, and backtrack to where I should be. My friends have always told me that when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Also, something that I seemed to have forgotten was brought up in Brandees xanga, and I realize that now, and I wish I had sooner. We do all sorts of things to make our lives seem greater and more grander but the thing, those are the things that entangle us in the world, and make it harder for us to achieve what we really are meant to achieve. These things that are supposedly supposed to "make us us" just make it easier for us to forget the journey that we are supposed to be on. No matter what though, there are only three answers to fix the problems we have, and although sometimes the answers are not we want; they are what was meant to be.  the three answers are...yes, no, and wait.....I really never wanted any of this to happen, and I guess right now, the only thing left to say is that I am sorry, I am sorry for the way I have ditched some of you, and to you Brandee....I thank you from the bottom of my heart, what you wrote made everything come full circle. But you know I can not do this alone, I will need your help, and may all of your dreams come true girl, I honestly don't know what I would do without you.  All this I said to say one thing,

Its not what we do, what we have, or even what we accomplish, it's the people you reach; that makes all of the difference.

Amanda Christine Rogers

May you all have peace, a peace that I feel was now granted to me......

The Awaiting Of Competition!

I am a nervous wreck...but we are prepared and ready for action. Ok, I totally did not write about hanging out with Andy....That was so freakin' awesome!! Me, Andy, Katy, Michelle, and Jaime, all went and Ate at the Olive Garden, Andy got sang to, and then we hit up Starbucks and did that damn thing. Good fun. I am really in a pretty good mood, Overall my day was ok, can't 'ask for more than that can I??? And than of course Practice, which went decent, and then me and Katy J went over to Brit's house for an hour and just hung out there, I had alot of fun. I have to be at School at like seven tomorrow so I am going to get off of this and try to get my ass to sleep. Muah*

M@NdY